realized knots

I know living in the past is wrong.  The past is the past and that should be it.  I almost feel like being bullied really damaged me in so many ways.  I have resentments towards a lot of things that I could have changed and did not because I was afraid and tried to do what I thought was right at the time.  I am the perfect example of making choices based on fear.  I was always judged.  No matter what I did.  I always think what could have been...